Do you ever wonder why? If you ask my parents what my favorite question was growing up, they would tell you “Why?” I asked it ALL the time - to the point where my parents would just respond with “because.”
To build off this question, another one I ask a lot is “God, why are you allowing this to happen to me?”
For those of you that don’t know, I am the intern here at the BCM. I was a student at UA and I graduated with a BS in Athletic Training. The BCM played an important part in helping me find a local faith family. Since my time at UA, I started working as an Athletic Trainer for a local company, I started grad school at New Orleans Baptist Theological Seminary, and I became the Missions Coordinator for Forest Lake Baptist Church.
Now, because my church created a partnership with a church planter in Indianapolis, and a variety of other reasons, I have had an opportunity to move back and forth between Indiana and Alabama. And this past year I lived in three completely different areas. (Tuscaloosa, Indianapolis, and the UK). Crazy I know, but, there is a reason for my moves: the Great Commission.
“Go therefore and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age." // Matthew 28:18-20
August feels: I have obeyed God. I’m where he told me to be; I’m in the position where I felt him lead me to be; I’m doing what I think he has instructed me. But, things were hard. My thoughts about certain things changed. Culture shock from the UK to Alabama was rough, and my living situation is not what I expected: I have three jobs, I’m running around like a chicken with my head cut off, and I feel completely ineffective because everything is new. When I got here, I felt abandoned, frustrated, and exhausted. How could God lead me to this place? How is this good?
Then I had an opportunity to go to a friends wedding overseas! While it’s great to see friends and catch up, I think the entire reason God allowed me to go back overseas was to show me that for this season, I’m not supposed to be there. God was once again very gracious and very faithful. He very gently reminded me that he called me to Alabama. In this moment, I felt God invite me to go deeper in my walk with him - to press in - when I wanted to bail out.